Yeah so I wrote a really huge post and then for some reason I got kicked off. So now its gone....
But here's another version...
I think I will blame the last post on a walking Nyquil induced coma. But thanks anyway Liz for the pep talk. I think I was just having an "I'm lonely" self pity fest. But I think it has subsided for the time being.

I just recently realized that I had a member profile thingie for AOL. So I fill it out and since then nothing but random gross guys keep IMing me and asking me if I like to talk dirty. I think I might just delete it. We'll see, maybe Justchillin69 is the man of my dreams.

Anyway, so last night Justin and Coral had Corinne and I over for dinner. It was awesome. I had no idea that Justin knew how to use a grill. Had a lot of fun. It's so neat to hear Justin talk about baby stuff. I mean seriously, Justin. I have known him for like 10 years. It's just really fucking weird. They are going to be great parents. And it's even more crazy to imagine Justin being patient and tolerant around children. But they are doing great. They have their own place. Sophia is precious. I wish I had a scanner so I could show you guys the pictures. Ow this is cute..... I'm an Auntie.

Earlier, Cindy and I went to Mancino's and then to see Spirited Away. Great Movie. It won an Oscar. Yeah I know, so did Eminem. But this movie rocks out. Harder than concrete. And don't get it confused with Spirit, that stupid movie about a horse. Totally different.

So a couple weeks ago, I talked to my manager about RN positions. I have been working there for three years with the understanding that I would have a job when I graduated. Well when I approached her, she's all, "Oh I forgot you were graduating and didn't leave a position open for you." What?!?!?! So I thought, Fuck It. I talked to Deaconess and have an interview on Thursday. Then today, out of the blue, my manager calls with two open positions for me. Now what do I do? Okay, so the cardiovascular unit at Deaconess is great, really busy, but everyone is so nice. That's where my cliniclas are for school. They made it pretty apparent that I could get a job, without a doubt. But the bad thing is, they only have night shift positions open. I hate night shift. I did that for a year and was sick the entire time. The sleeping pattern changes fucked me up. St. Mary's on the other hand... I would be working on my unit. Some of the nurses suck and they definitely almost screwed me, but I love my patients. I have taken care of most of them for years. And they have Day/Evening positions open. One of the positions is weekend option. You just work Fri/Sat/Sun - 12 hour shifts, but the pay is pretty nice. The other position is just random weekdays and every other weekend - 8 and 12 hour shifts. So what do I do?!?!?! Fuck It. It should all fall into place. Also I was thinking... I'm going to stay in Evansville for another school year to finish up my two bachelor's degrees, and then I would really like to move to Indy with my nursing friends (Their hospitals have mad sign-on bonuses and the cost of living is not that much more than E'ville), and then I might be further persuaded into moving to Cali with Liz and JD, and maybe Stacey! Sound good? I really need to get away. I'm stuck in a funk. I just feel like my life is stagnating. Bleh.

You know what sucks? BRONCHITIS. And I think I have it. Why don't I go to the doctor? Cause what if it's not bronchitis, then I have to pay the doctor to say,"yeah you have a really bad COLD. Take some Tylenol and drink plenty of fluids and get some sleep." You know what else sucks? Throwing up. Ugh I hate it. But I think I might be getting better. I haven't thrown up since yesterday morning. That's like a whole month of random throwing up. But I will reiterate... I'm not pregnant. Just fucked up. I think it just my nerves. School is stressing me out, among everything else. I'm doing good so far though.

Well I guess that's all for now.
Jesus and I love you!